Feeling Misery & Happy

Should you have any answer or opinion regarding the situations below, please kindly respond. Thank you.

1. Currently, checking for emails is somewhat problematic when I use Celcom broadband. I have to try many times to navigate from 1 page to another and more often than not, I end up in frustration. This does not occur when I use wireless connection.
   
2. I can't sign in for my YM account when I use the broadband. Again, this does not happen if I use wireless connection.
3. The connection speed using this broadband is too slow. This badly irritates me especially when I need to search for some information urgently. I've referred this to one of the promoters outside the Celcom center in Kuantan but his answer did not satisfy me.
   

Is there anyone here who experiences the same?

Regardless of the problems above, I am happy today & really thankful to Allah. Alhamdulillah, I passed all the papers in the previous mid-sem exam. Though my average marks are lower than those of my two room-mates', I am still happy that now I've got my "booster dose" to struggle for OSCE & final exam.

For those who have failed one or more subjects, I know what you guys feel at this moment because I've experienced the same..sadness, hopelessness, inferiority complex bla bla bla. Having these feelings is not wrong because we are normal human beings. However, we have to manage them properly. Don't get yourself drawn in these feelings for days and finally you do nothing for the final exam. Remember, you can't stop the countdown. Hey, failure in mid-sem exam is not the end of the world!

I've failed mid-sem but Allah had helped me to compensate in final exam for that two papers. Though I didn't get A, He gave me chance to have B-. I believe that you guys can do better than me. Come on, get up from your misery! Study, study, study!

"Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: 'We believe' and will not be tested?"

[Surah al-Ankabut: 2]

"..and never give up hope of Allah's Mercy. Certainly, no one despairs of Allah's Mercy, except the people who disbelieve"

[Surah Yusuf: 87]

"And when My slaves ask you (O Muhammad s.a.w.) concerning Me, then (answer them), I am indeed near (to them by My Knowledge). I respond to the invocations of the supplicant when he calls on Me(without any mediator or intercessor). So let them obey Me & believe in Me, so that they may be led aright"

[Surah al-Baqarah: 186]

Allah is always listening to you. Rise everytime you fail! That is considered as success.

Look, if you have some time, go get your lecturers who teach you the subject that you have failed. Ask them, which part you got the lowest mark and inquire for their opinion about the ways that you should take to improve. May be you have done very good in essays but too bad in MCQ. Who knows, may be you are one of the minus-marking-victims! That was what happened to me. Use this consultation hour to ask anything that you do not understand in the subject. If you are lucky, the lecturers will give some exam tips during the consultation hour.

Wishing you all the best!

O Allah, help us in making correct decision..
O Allah, shower us your blessing & assistance..
O Allah, grant us the success in this world & hereafter..

Ameen ya rabb..

MMP Melakar Sejarah Lagi!

Maahad Muhammadi Perempuan (MMP) Kota Bharu meneruskan lagi kecemerlangannya. Kali ini dengan melakar sejarah dalam keputusan SPM 2008, lebih baik daripada tahun-tahun yang sebelumnya. Tahniah diucapkan kepada ukhti Nik Nur Madihah Nik Mohamad Kamal kerana berjaya memperoleh 20A (19A1, 1A2)! Anda & sahabat-sahabat berjaya meneruskan legasi di MMP dan kami para alumni merasa sangat bangga dengan pencapaian ini.

Nah! Siapa kata pelajar sekolah agama lekeh? Siapa kata sekolah agama kerajaan negeri Kelantan tak mampu bersaing di peringkat nasional mahupun global? Ternyata, keberkatan daripada Tuhan itulah kunci kejayaan. Tanpa keberkatan, sekolah elit macam mana pun tak akan dapat melahirkan insan yang sejati. Bumi MMP merasa hangatnya kasih yang mengalir ikhlas daripada nadi para ilmuwan & agamawan sejak zaman berzaman. Biar tanpa bantuan penuh daripada kerajaan persekutuan, MMP tetap mara menongkah arus kemodenan kerna tertubuhnya MMP atas nama ketuhanan.

Oh, rindunya aku kepada MMP!

Maahad cemerlang budaya kita
Mari bersama kita buktikannya
Tiap detik adalah ibadah
Menabur bukti dan berjasa

Maahad cemerlang budaya kita
Kau mutiara kaulah pelita
Menyuluh derita anak bangsa
Melahirkan makrifat di mana berada

Maahad cemerlang budaya kita
Mula diri, keluarga, negara tercinta
Maahad mahkota cermin agama
Iman & taqwa matlamat utama

Maahad cemerlang budaya kita
Guru tercinta ikutan mulia
Putera puteri layar perjuangan
Maahad cemerlang budaya kita

Salam Sejahtera ke atasmu, ya Rasulullah!

Allahumma solli wasallim 'ala Muhammad, wa 'ala aali Muhammad..

Segala pujian dipanjatkan kepada Allah kerana masih lagi memberikan kita peluang untuk bernafas dalam nikmat Iman dan Islam, alhamdulillah. Syukur jua kerana hasil perjuangan & pengorbanan junjungan besar baginda Nabi s.a.w. kita pada hari ini dapat mengenal 2 kalimah syahadah

"Asyhadu allailaha illallah wa asyhadu anna muhammadarrasulullah"

Kita berkata, kita beriman dan percayakan Allah dan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Saban waktu, kita berulang-ulangkali melafazkan syahadatain itu. Namun, adakah kita mengetahui tuntutan-tuntutannya? Sudahkah kita benar-benar merealisasikan ikrar kita itu dalam kehidupan seharian? Adakah kita mengamalkan ajaran-ajaran Islam yang sebenar yang diutuskan oleh Allah melalui Rasulnya?

1. Kita sebagai individu muslim - dari sudut aqidah, ibadah, akhlaq, menguasai diri, mewakafkan diri dalam perjuangan menegakkan Islam
   
2. Rumahtangga kita sebagai rumahtangga muslim - tanggungjawab sebelum & setelah berumahtangga, mendidik ahli keluarga, melindungi mereka dari siksa api neraka
   
3. Masyarakat kita sebagai masyarakat muslim - menyuruh yang baik, mencegah yang buruk (al-amru bil ma'ruf wan nahyu 'anil munkar), budaya 'pedulisme'
4. Negara kita sebagai negara muslim - menjadikan al-Quran & as-sunnah sebagai sistem perundangan tertinggi negara, bukannya perlembagaan hasil rekaan manusia
   
5. Khilafah islamiyyah menguasai alam - seluruh pelusuk alam dapat merasai rahmat Islam, tiada lagi penindasan & kezaliman bermaharajalela
   

Islam itu tinggi & tidak ada yang lebih tinggi daripada Islam. Fahamilah maksud sebenar perkataan "MUSLIM" iaitu menyerahkan diri secara total untuk melaksanakan perintah Allah & menjauhi laranganNya. Jika kita berbuat demikian, nescya kita akan selamat di dunia & di akhirat, insya Allah.

"Aslim, taslam"

Justeru, jadikanlah 5 perkara di atas sebagai tugasan yang kita perlu selesaikan dalam menyempurnakan misi kita: memburu redha Tuhan. Bertindaklah kerana itu akan menjadi bukti kecintaan kita kepada Allah dan RasulNya!

"Love is a verb"

Another TWO

Yesterday, I virtually chatted with a Texas lady. Today, I really talked to another Texas lady. Two totally different Texas ladies within two days in two separate occasions. Again, I'm wondering, what's so special about 2?

The former one, she was sneaking through blogs when she suddenly came across my Yahoo ID in bloggers list, so she decided to add me in her contact list, you know, just for some chit-chat. And that was how we started to know each other briefly. I'm glad that I've given something new to this lady, a new knowledge about Islam & Muslim that she never thought of before. It is a concept about relationship between males and females in Islam that she first said as "dumbo" the very moment I explained it to her.

I am not angry with her , not at all, as this is very much expected from the beginning. She's a typical Texas woman. I've presented to her an analogy after analogy which I thought were logic & rational. Alhamdulillah, finally she admitted that this new weird thing that I've mentioned to her was so interesting and she wanted to dig for more. I do hope that she'll finally find the true light in her life. May Allah guide her to the right path.. ameen!

I met the latter lady in a seminar today, Multaqa Institusi Tahfiz Kebangsaan 2009, which is held in Kompleks Yayasan Pahang, Tanjung Lumpur, Kuantan. This 42 years old Texas lady happened to sit next to me in the main hall after the lunch break. She who is married to a Kelantanese actually reverted to Islam when she was 24 years old. She was so excited finding someone like us in this seminar whom she can speak to with her mother tongue. Wearing a perfect Muslim attire, this English teacher was so eager to learn about tahfiz institution in Malaysia.

"Owh, this is only the first day but there are so many input!," she said as she was scribbling words after words on her paper. Another thing that she mentioned as we were giving a big applause in the hall, "We shouldn't clap our hands like this (palm-to-palm) but when we clap like this (palm-to-back of hand), the sounds don't come out loud. They say, it's like we are calling for shaitan. Uhh, I should have find the hadith about this. I can't believe it until I see it myself".

Although one is a non-Muslim and the other is Muslim, there is something similar that I can learn from both of them: their thirst for knowledge. They know what they need and they are very decisive, yet very determined.

Black Sheep In The Family

Here is one of the common questions asked by Non-Muslims, to be answered by Muslims:

Muslims pray 5 times per day, more than people in other religions do. But why there are many Muslims who still involve in the bad deeds; the bribery, the corruption? If Islam can not prevent them from doing such evil things, then, what are the differences between being Muslims & Non-Muslims? Even some Non-Muslims are better than Muslims.

Nah! My dear brothers & sisters in Islam,

What do you feel when you are asked about that, do you have any brilliant answer? Indeed, you who claim yourself to be Muslim but do not act the way Muslim should be, you are the "black sheep" in Islam! Should we choose you to be our leader while you yourself never represent Islam? Do you still want to draw our attention by saying that "by electing us, only then Islam will be protected"? Will Islam be protected by those who are corrupt, selfish and arrogant? Islam never teaches us so.

By the way, Allah is always the Most Gracious & the Most Merciful to his servants. Once we are wrong for not totally submitting ourselves to His commands, He still opens widely the door of repentance for us. He'll forgive us if we really want to be forgiven, wholeheartedly. If we "walk" towards Allah, He'll "run" towards us. It's only the matter of.. do we want it or not? Let's grab this golden chance!

P/S: Congratulations to all my fellow friends for successfully organizing such wonderful programs this weekend! Inter-Faith Dialogue (IFD) 2009 and Seminar on Early Marriage. Thanks, guys..for giving me the opportunity to grab the invaluable knowledge!

Temuduga SPA: Satu Pengalaman

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal..akhirnya aku berjaya mengharungi temuduga SPA! Semua pelajar tahun akhir jurusan farmasi di UIAM Kuantan ditemuduga secara berkelompok, dibahagikan kepada 3 kumpulan dan berlangsung sepanjang 3 hari (24, 25, 26 Feb 09). Susun atur dalam kumpulan adalah mengikut tarikh lahir. Yang paling tua akan mula dulu. Aku ditempatkan dalam kumpulan kedua dan merupakan orang yang kedua ditemuduga pada hari kedua. Huh, ada apa dengan nombor 2? Tak ada apa-apa.

Aku menanti giliranku dengan penuh debar di hadapan Seminar Room bersebelahan dengan bilik kuliah kami sambil membelek-belek BNF. Semua sijil telah disusun dalam satu display folder. Satu resume mengenaiku telah pun aku keluarkan daripada folder dan dikepilkan bersama satu salinan fotokopi kad pengenalan, surat beranak, sijil SPM, surat pengesahan dan juga senarai semak dokumen. Pakaian yang dipakai adalah pakaian formal: baju kurung & tudung kosong senada, kasut berwarna gelap yang bertutup, dan kad matrik. Urmm..agaknya, apakah soalan-soalan yang akan dikemukakan nanti?

20 minit berlalu setelah Jiman melangkah masuk ke dalam bilik temuduga sebagai orang pertama dan akhirnya dia keluar juga. Kring! Loceng berbunyi. Aku bangun dari tempat duduk dan..Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..masuk menghadap. Sebaik sahaja aku menghampiri meja, aku menyerahkan folder dan resume kepada penemuduga. Penemuduga ada dua orang kesemuanya. Seorang dari SPA dan seorang lagi ialah pegawai farmasi HTAA yang mewakili KKM. Kedua-duanya berbangsa Cina.

Aku mengucapkan terima kasih setelah dipelawa duduk dan sesi temuduga dimulakan oleh Pengerusi dan diikuti oleh pegawai farmasi. Yang banyak menguasai temuduga adalah Pengerusi. Lojikla kan, sebab dia pengerusi..apa daaa..

Sambil meneliti resume dan melihat sijil-sijil yang ada, pengerusi bertanyakan beberapa soalan seperti: Nama & asal, latar belakang pendidikan, tahap penguasaan Bahasa Inggeris dan peranan farmasis dalam sektor kerajaan. Ok, jawab, jangan tak jawab! Jika soalan diajukan dalam ibunda, maka jawablah dengan bahasa yang sama. Sekiranya soalan dikemukakan dalam Bahasa Inggeris, maka jawablah dengan Bahasa Inggeris juga. Berikut adalah sebahagian daripada dialog yang berlaku. Semoga kalian, terutamanya yang bakal menempuhi mana-mana sesi temuduga, beroleh manfaat darinya. Aku paparkan di sini tidak sekali-kali bertujuan untuk berbangga diri (na'uzubillah).

Awak memang belajar di sekolah agama sejak dari sekolah rendah hingga ke universiti?

Ya, saya mendapat pendidikan peringkat rendah dan menengah di sekolah agama, kemudian melanjutkan pelajaran ke Darul Quran, seterusnya ke Pusat Matrikulasi UIAM PJ dan sekarang di UIAM Kuantan.

Quite religious! Semua sekolah agama separate gender kan?

Tak semua, tapi sekolah saya ya.

So, how do you find mixing with other gender in university and later in career? Adaptation? Boleh masuk dengan semua orang ke?

So far, I can mix with people, there's no problem with adapting to new situations. And I like interacting with people.

No problem? Really?

Yes (with a confident look)

I asked that because more often than not, religious people used to become withdrawn. They don't like mixing, itu tak boleh, ini tak boleh. But I really like those religious people who can adapt and mix well with others, terutamanya sewaktu kerja nanti.

Ya, we should be professional. I'll try my best!

Ya, tak semua orang sama dengan kita, macam-macam ada. Ada yang putih, ada yang hitam, ada yang kuning..tapi semuanya diciptakan oleh satu Tuhan (sambil mengangkat jari telunjuknya). There are three things that we should practice: tolerance, understanding and respect. Tak kiralah bangsa apa, agama apa sekali pun.

Yes, I agree..we have to respect the diversity of human being.

Ya, ingat 3 perkara yang saya sebutkan tadi. It's our right to be religious but don't make it as a barrier. Religious people should be more open-minded. Well, we should not discuss about religion too much in this interview. So, it's quite good of you then. Bagaimana pula dengan tahap penguasaan Bahasa Inggeris?

Saya boleh kata..baik.

Ya, untuk SPM, English dapat A1. Awak punya akademik bagus, agama pun bagus. Bagaimana cikgu di sekolah agama menekankan Bahasa Inggeris? Siapa yang mengajar?

Di sekolah saya, Bahasa Inggeris memang ditekankan sebelum pelajar menduduki PMR lagi..bla bla bla.. Cikgu saya..bla bla bla..

Oleh kerana Bahasa Inggeris awak ok, could you please explain in English what are the roles of government pharmacists?

As government pharmacists, our role should be parallel with the vision and mission of MOH..bla bla bla.. In hospital setting, we play roles as.bla bla bla.. In community setting..bla bla bla.. While in enforcement, we should...bla bla bla..

Ok, I can see your ideas but they are all jumble-up, you were jumping here and there. You should organize your thoughts systematically. Anyway, I can see that you understand well what your functions are..but again, arrange your ideas. You are good in English.

(Uhuks! Smile..) Thank you for the advice. I will try to improve it.

One thing about enforcement division: the integrity. Please put this at the highest place, no compromy, avoid corruption.

Yes, that should be the main concern. Is that like check and balance?

No, no balance, check only. If there is balance, then there is compromy. We don't want any compromy in following the standards that have been set up. But there are people out there who are compromising these standards. That's not right at all. It's too risky for all people. (The pharmacist beside him were nodding his head repeatedly)

Yes, I understand about that. Integrity is number one!

OK, ke mana awak mahu pergi selepas habis belajar?

Saya berminat untuk masuk hospital setting

Where do you want to..ermm..(pause)

To be placed?

Ya, where do you want to be placed?

The first choice is my hometown.

Kota Bharu, Kelantan? Nak balik kampung la ni? (Synical smile)

Yes, actually that's because I'm the eldest of 10 siblings, my dad had passed away more than 5 years ago and my mother is the only breadwinner in the family currently. I would like to be placed closer to my family so I can help them more.

Hmm, but you won't really be able to do that once you start working (Synical smile again). Well, I know that you now understand what are the situations that you will be going through. Knowledge and skills are very important.

Uhmm.. where we can get the knowledge, get it. Then, apply it in our daily life and share it with others. Isn't it right?

Right! OK, that's all from me.

Kemudian, penemuduga dari KKM mengambil alih sesi temuduga.

You've said about clinical pharmacy just now. What is clinical pharmacy?

Clinical pharmacy involves..bla bla bla..

Among hypertension, diabetes and asthma, which part are you good in?

Hypertension.. uhmm, no, no.. diabetes. Yes, DM (sebab belajar sem ni & baru je jawab dlm midsem exam)

In Type 2 Diabetes Mellitus, what are the mainstay of the treatment?

For DM type 2, the mainstay of the treatment are monitoring the diet, take less food with high sugar content, performing physical activities..bla bla bla. If after several weeks, the blood glucose level still does not reach the target value, then a drug is indicated. Drug also should be started immediately if patients are symptomatic. The first-line is metformin especially for the overweight and obese patient, unless it is contraindicated.

What are the contraindications for metformin?

For example, severe liver imparment or chronic kidney disease.

Ok, then what are the alternatives?

We can give other type of oral antidiabetic agent such as thiazolidinedione, acarbose, sulphonylureas etc. Insulin is the last choice.

Why insulin is the last choice?

Because it is in injection form and it is invasive. The general principle is, initiate oral drug first, single therapy. If it does not work, increase the dose and if it still doesn't work, combine with other oral antidiabetic agent. When these steps fail, only then, the patient should be given insulin plus the mainstay of the treatment...bla bla bla..

Alright, your knowledge is quite good. Like what have been said just now, knowledge and skills are very important especially in clinical setting. I hope you can keep on searching for knowledge and apply it. Thank you. That's all from us.

OK then. Thank you, Mr... Thank you, Mr... (smile)

Sambil tersenyum, aku bangkit dari kerusi dan mara sedikit ke hadapan mereka untuk mengambil folderku, dan terus menapak untuk keluar dari bilik temuduga. Alhamdulillah, selesai sudah satu step. Kelegaan! Harap-harap, dapat kerja di negeri sendiri. Ameen!

Kesimpulannya,

• Buktikan bahawa orang yang belajar agama BOLEH!
• Tolerate, understand and respect others!
• Arrange your ideas systematically!
  
• Equip yourself with knowledge & skills, no matter where you go!
• Usaha + doa + tawakkal!

Dunia Tanpa Buku

“Ya Allah, banyaknya buku! Kena sewa kontena agaknya di akhir sem ni.. Huhu, jenuhnya nak mengangkut!,” aku terkesima tatkala mataku tertumpu ke rak-rak buku di bilikku di Mahallah Maimunah yang sarat dengan pelbagai jenis bahan bacaan.

Pada hari Isnin lepas, seorang juniorku merangkap bekas anak usrahku, Zurin mengajak aku ke East Coast Mall (ECM), Kuantan. Lebih spesifiknya, ke Methodist Bookstore (MBS) untuk mencari sebuah buku penulis kegemarannya, Faisal Tehrani. Sedang Zurin memburu targetnya, mataku meliar memerhatikan setiap judul buku yang ada di MBS terutamanya di rak-rak yang menempatkan novel-novel Inggeris dan buku-buku motivasi serta kepimpinan. Sebelum datang, langsung tak terniat di hati untuk membeli walau sebuah buku cuma. Sekadar menemani Zurin dan meninjau-ninjau apa yang ada, mungkin. Setelah lama melilau di dalam MBS, akhirnya tanganku menggapai dua buah buku: Mind Map yang ditulis oleh Tony Buzan dan Amazing Grace karya Danielle Steel.

“K.AC, dah nak grad dah, buat apa beli lagi buku Mind Map ni?”, kata Zurin sambil mengerling ke arah buku-buku yang berada di tanganku.

“Haha, tak apalah.. Dah lama dah akak nak beli buku ni sebenarnya. Mungkin berguna suatu hari nanti. Tak pun, boleh ajar anak-anak nanti..hehe,” aku memberikan alasan walaupun ada benarnya kata-kata Zurin tu.

“Dapat tak buku yang awak cari?”, aku pula yang bertanyakan Zurin.

“Huhu..dah habis! Terpaksalah saya tunggu stok baru. Saya beli juga buku-buku Faisal Tehrani yang lain”, mencuka wajah Zurin mengenangkan buku yang diidamkan masih belum dapat dimiliki.

Usai membayar harga buku-buku yang dibeli, kami bergegas pulang ke Kampus UIAM di Indera Mahkota memandangkan waktu Maghrib sudah hampir benar. Fuhh, bertambah lagi koleksi buku aku! Novel Danielle Steel aku khatamkan dalam masa tak sampai dua hari. Kalau tak ada kuliah, mungkin dalam masa satu hari sahaja dah boleh khatam. Buku Tony Buzan pula sangat seronok untuk diteroka! Mungkin agak susah untuk aku mengaplikasikan teknik-teknik yang diajarnya memandangkan aku sekarang sudah berada di semester akhir. Dah liat. Buat junior-juniorku, kalian disyorkan untuk mempelajari teknik mind mapping ini. Berguna sekali!

Itu cerita pada tiga, empat hari yang lepas. Semalam, aku membeli lagi sebuah buku baru: Telaga Budi yang memuatkan tulisan-tulisan Y.A.B. Tuan Guru Dato’ Nik Abdul Aziz Nik Mat. Mengandungi 29 bab yang disusun oleh Annual Bakri Haron, buku ini bagaikan sebuah telaga yang amat kaya dengan segala macam peringatan khas buat kita insan yang selalu alpa. Aku baru sahaja menghadamkan bab pertama: Ingatlah, Allah Melihat Kita. Seperti biasa, tulisan Tuan Guru diselang-selikan dengan dalil naqli dan ‘aqli bagi mengukuhkan setiap isi. Ya, kita mesti hidup berdalil! Kesimpulan yang aku dapat daripada bab pertama ini adalah dunia akan aman jika kita sedar dan yakin bahawa Allah itu Maha Mengawasi setiap tingkah-laku kita.

Melihat buku-bukuku yang memenuhi rak, aku yakin pertambahan bilangan buku akan terus berlaku selagi aku masih hidup. Terima kasih tak terhingga aku ucapkan kepada ummi dan arwah abah kerana kalianlah yang memperkenalkan buku ke dalam hidupku. Walau umur masih belum menginjak dua tahun, kalian mengajarku membaca, membelikanku buku itu dan buku ini supaya aku cepat mengenal dunia. Ya, mengenal dunia melalui jendela buku itu lebih mematangkan fikiran!

Buku-bukuku di alam kanak-kanak masih elok tersimpan di perpustakaan mini rumah kami. Masih elok untuk dibaca oleh adik-adikku dan sesiapa sahaja walaupun banyak juga mengandungi ‘lakaran-lakaran abstrak’ hasil tanganku yang sampai sekarang tak kuketahui maknanya. Melihatnya sudah cukup untuk aku mengimbau zaman kanak-kanak yang penuh memori indah, manis untuk dikenang.

Minat terhadap buku ini mungkin diwarisi dari abah dan ummi juga. Masakan tidak, rak-rak perpustakaan mini di rumah kami kebanyakannya dipenuhi dengan buku-buku dan kitab-kitab milik abah dan ummi sejak dari mereka berada di bangku sekolah hinggalah sekarang. Bahkan, aku pertama kali mengenali harakah Islamiyyah daripada bahan-bahan bacaan kepunyaan abah. Tatkala hayat abah masih ada, abah juga tak jemu membawa kami ke pesta-pesta buku. Sekarang, tradisi ini diteruskan oleh ummi pula.

‘Beli buku boleh, beli makanan boleh tapi beli mainan tak boleh sebab mainan dah banyak dah kat rumah’. Itulah antara dialog-dialog mereka yang cukup aku kenali.

Betapa membaca sangat dititikberatkan di dalam keluargaku walaupun tak semua adik-beradikku tegar dengan tabiat yang agak membosankan bagi sesetengah orang ini. It’s ok, we have to respect the diversity of human beings! Dalam banyak-banyak buku milik arwah abah yang ada, kitab-kitab tafsir dan hadith yang ditulis dalam bahasa Arab oleh beberapa orang ulamak muktabar adalah antara yang masih belum dibelek. Tafsir al-Qurtubi, Tafsir at-Tobari, Tafsir al-Muneer, Tafsir Fi Zilalil Quran, Sohih Bukhari, Sohih Muslim, Sunan Abi Daud etc. Kulit kitab-kitab ini masih keras, sisi kertasnya masih tajam. Insya Allah, suatu hari nanti, akan ada juga yang mencedok manfaat darinya.

Dalam diam, aku mengkagumi para penulis buku. Kebanyakan ulamak Islam dahulu dan komtemporari juga mengabadikan pandangan mereka dan segala ilmu yang dianugerahkan oleh Allah ke dalam buku. Mereka membaca, mereka juga menulis. Mudah-mudahan, ilmu Allah yang maha luas itu boleh disampaikan kepada generasi seterusnya tanpa putus. Moga-moga, Allah mengganjarkan pahala yang berterusan kepada mereka selagi mana karya mereka ini memberi manfaat kepada umat manusia.

Tak rugi kalau kita laburkan duit untuk membeli buku. Ia umpama kita melabur untuk satu khazanah yang sangat berharga, bahkan pelaburan ini boleh diwarisi oleh sesiapa sahaja!

Cuba bayangkan, bagaimanakah agaknya keadaan dunia ini tanpa adanya penulisan, dunia tanpa buku?

"Read! In the name of your Lord Who has created (all that exists)"
[Surah al-'Alaq: 1]

An Anesthetic called L.O.V.E.

If I were given a chance to give a name to a newly-invented anesthetic agent, I would like to name it as LOVE, can I, Mr. FDA? Ahhaa..now I’m writing about love. Wink!

Betulkan, cinta tu adalah satu ubat bius? Kalau tak, masakan lagu Dibius Cinta nyanyian Melly Goeslaw feat. Yusri itu dijadikan soundtrack untuk filem Cicak Man 2. Mungkin juga sebab dah itu Yusri punya filem, jadi dia masukkanlah lagu dia. Ehee, sikit-sikit tu kenalah tahu apa yang sedang berlaku dalam arena hiburan masa kini, tak gitu?

Basically, there are general anesthetics (GA) as well as local anesthetics (LA). If one is administered with a GA, he would not know or realize what is happening onto him or around him while the GA is exerting its effects on him. In other word, he is totally unconscious. If the agent applied is LA, he will still aware about the situation he is in but he does not feel the pain at the site of LA administration. Usually, this LA is used by doctors in minor surgery.

Ubat bius atau ubat pelali ada manfaat dan mudaratnya. Sangat bermanfaat tatkala kesakitan tak bisa ditanggung lagi. Namun, sangat mudarat jika disalahguna, selalunya, oleh mereka yang mahu menculik, merogol atau membunuh. Itulah kuasa ubat bius!

Berbalik kepada sejenis ‘ubat bius’ yang kunamakan sebagai CINTA, sungguh, kesannya begitu luar biasa!

Lihat sajalah pada kisah cinta Muhammad s.a.w. dan Khadijah r.a., merekalah pencinta agung sepanjang zaman! Bagaimana mungkin Khadijah mampu mewakafkan diri dan seluruh hartanya untuk perjuangan suaminya kalau cinta beliau kepada Muhammad s.a.w. itu tidak didasari aqidah Islamiyyah yang mengakar dalam jiwa? Betapa luar biasanya cinta Khadijah kepada Muhammad s.a.w., dihiburkan Muhammad s.a.w. tatkala baginda mengalami ketakutan di malam turunnya wahyu pertama, dibelai jantung hatinya itu sewaktu baginda dipulaukan masyarakat, dihulurkan segenap isi karung hartanya kepada Muhammad tatkala perjuangan itu menuntut kepada harta dunia, bahkan dari rahim beliau jugalah lahirnya keturunan Muhammad s.a.w yang menambahkan lagi cahaya kepada kehidupan mereka berdua.

Dan Muhammad s.a.w, ternyata, cintanya kepada Khadijah tidak mati dengan perginya Khadijah dijemput Tuhannya. Bahkan, penangan cinta Khadijah terus bersemi dalam urat nadi Muhammad. Barangkali, cinta itulah yang meneguhkan setiap hayunan langkahnya demi menegakkan syiar Islam di muka bumi ini. Barangkali, cinta Khadijah jualah yang membius Muhammad supaya sentiasa tegar, tabah dan cekal dalam menempuh ranjau di sepanjang lorong perjuangan yang penuh berliku. Menitinya nama Khadijah di bibir Muhammad saban waktu, sudah cukup menimbulkan cemburu di hati isteri baginda yang lain.

Ah, aku ingin sekali menjadi pencinta sehebat Khadijah! Mencintai Allah & RasulNya melebihi segala-galanya..

Bukan seperti kebanyakan orang sekarang, menyambut Valentine’s Day yang sudah jelas hukumnya haram

Yang dicanangkan oleh kuffarlah yang diagung-agungkan, walhal, tiada jaminan ikatan cinta rapuh itu akan berkekalan

Yang dulunya mengalahkan pak lebai, sekarang dah tak makan saman dek kerana bius cinta seorang teman

Diseretnya anak orang ke sana ke mari, padahal belum tentu jadi bini

Buruk rupanya jika gerbang perkahwinan suci dicemari dosa sendiri

Kata-kata "sayang, I love you", meluncur laju macam peluru

Dosa pahala, syurga neraka ditolak ke tepi, katanya “tahulah aku jaga diri”

“Kau peduli apa aku begini, kubur nanti sendiri-sendiri”

Sebab di kubur nanti sendiri-sendirilah aku nak tolong kau sekarang ini

Semua orang ada nafsu tapi semua orang juga dibekalkan akal, walau tak semua dilengkapi iman

Nafsu itu perlu dididik, bukan dibelai, bukan dimusnahkan

Sedarlah, wahai kawan…kerana pada Hari itu nanti, kau takkan dapat melawan api Tuhan!

Maka, cintailah seseorang kerana Allah, nescaya kau akan menjadi orang yang paling bahagia, kerana hanya Dialah yang mengutuskan bahagia itu ke hati hambaNya.

Semoga kita tergolong dalam orang yang bahagia di dunia dan di akhirat..ameen!

Yang ke-101

Alhamdulillah, sedar tak sedar, jumlah entry di dalam blog ini sudah mencecah ke angka 100 dan ini yang ke-101. Jom, mari menyorot sejarah penubuhan bintangtimur-ac.blogspot.com! Aku berblog bukan kerana dipaksa sesiapa, bukan jua bertujuan untuk menandingi sesiapa. Mungkin kerana tangan ini gatal untuk mencoret, maka blog menjadi sasaran. Aku bukannya jenis yang suka menulis di dalam diary. Pernah mencuba, tapi tak menjadi. Ditambah dengan hobi melayari internet dan kemudahan internet yang senang diakses, aku nekad untuk terjun ke dunia baru ini.

Kenapa blogspot, bukan provider yang lain? Actually, dulu aku pernah try blogdrive tapi macam tak best. Masa tu, aku belum mengenali wordpress atau provider yang lain. Yang aku sering terjumpa adalah blogspot. Lalu, blogspot menjadi pilihanku sehingga sekarang.

Bintangtimur @ Eastar. Akhirnya nama itu yang diabadikan di ruangan maya ini setelah berusaha memerah otak memikirkannya. Huh, itu belum tahap memikirkan nama anak lagi tu.. Banyak faktor yang menjurus ke arah pemilihan nama ini. Sedari kecil, aku suka memerhatikan bintang. Semasa di MMP dulu pun, aku menganggotai Persatuan Falak Syarie MMP yang antara aktivitinya adalah mencerap bintang-bintang dan planet. Seronok! Jodohku dengan bintang dikuatkan lagi apabila naqibahku sewaktu aku di DQ menggelarkan kami anak-anak usrahnya ini sebagai 'bintang-bintang'. Terima kasih, K.Normi a.k.a. 'mak bintang'!

Perihal bintang juga diceritakan beberapa kali dalam Al-Quran, menggambarkan kebesaran Sang Pemilik Alam. Itu tentang bintang, makhluk Tuhan yang mampu mendamaikan hati yang rawan serta memberi pedoman kepada musafir di perjalanan. Aku berharap agar aku jua seperti itu. Seandainya tak mampu menjadi sebegitu, sekurang-kurangnya aku tidak menjadi kebencian Tuhan.

Tapi, kenapa bintang timur, bukan bintang barat/utara/selatan? Eh, takkanlah nak letak nama North Star. Itukan jenama kasut. Nanti, tak pasal-pasal pulak company tu saman aku sebab tiru nama dia. Ehee..sebenarnya, aku bangga menjadi orang timur dan bukankah sinar Islam itu sendiri bermula di Timur! Aku mengandaikan diriku ini sebagai Muslim yang bertanggungjawab untuk menjulang panji Islam itu, biarpun sekadar di ruangan blog yang picisan ini.

Walaupun sudah menjangkau 100 entry, aku masih belum berhajat untuk mengubah template blog ini. Aku senang dengan apa yang ada sekarang. Biarpun tanpa widget, glittering graphic ataupun music penghibur jiwa, aku masih mahu mengekalkan rekabentuk yang sama sehinggalah ke suatu masa yang belum pasti. Lagi pun, accessory tambahan hanya akan melambatkan!

Aku juga masih belum mahu meletakkan mana-mana entryku di bawah mana-mana label. Biarlah pengunjung sendiri yang melabelkan semua entry yang ada. Lagi pun, aku hanya menulis apa yang terlintas di benakku dan cukup malas untuk mengklasifikasikan entry yang bakal aku post sama ada dalam bahasa Melayu atau Inggeris. Kadang-kadang ianya berupa pengalaman peribadi, kekeluargaan, dan persahabatan. Tidak kurang juga tentang politik dan hal ehwal semasa. Akademik dan karier juga. Yang masih belum ada, tentang cinta!

Sebelum aku menamatkan entry ini dan kembali ke meja studi, aku ingin melafazkan sesuatu.

"Terima kasih tak terhingga aku ucapkan kepada pengunjung-pengunjung blog ini! Semoga kalian mendapat manfaat walaupun sedikit cuma. Komentar kalian sekurang-kurangnya dapat membuka mindaku tentang sesuatu perkara, terus, menjadikan aku lebih bersemangat untuk menjadi blogger".

P/S:

1- Selamat menempuhi Mid-sem exam kepada sahabat-sahabat di UIAM. May success be ours..ameen!

2- Sudah terang lagi bersuluh: Siapa pemimpin berjiwa rakyat, siapa pula mereka yang khianat! Bukalah mata, hati dan minda dalam menilai sesuatu. Yakinlah, kebaikan itu hanya boleh didapati jika kita menerima Islam secara keseluruhannya, bukan separuh-separuh, bukan ikut suka.

Erdogan..ubat buat umat Islam di saat ini

Aku mengimpikan seorang perdana menteri seperti Erdogan, teguh berprinsip mempertahankan Islam! Lantaklah Israel mahupun Amerika nak kata apa pun, yang benar tetap benar, yang salah tetap salah. Itu yang berlaku di pentas dunia antarabangsa sekarang. Umum dapat melihat siapa yang kecil beraninya, siapa pula yang bijak lagi perkasa.

Aku di sini pula diuji dengan bermacam symptoms sejak semalam. Sakit kepala, kekadang pening melanda, sengal-sengal di seluruh badan, sekejap rasa panas, sekejap rasa sejuk atau orang meingistilahkan situasi ini sebagai seram sejuk. Batuk-batuk kecil pula semakin kerap menyerang dan kesan tonsillitis mula terasa tatkala menelan air liur pun sudah terasa perit sekali dan selera makan hilang sedikit demi sedikit. Ah, ini tanda-tanda demam! Homeostasis badanku sedang diancam!

Setakat ini, tablet paracetamol @ panadol 500 mg menjadi sasaranku. Harapnya, dengan izin Allah, segalanya akan kembali normal dalam masa yang terdekat kerana…kerana aku tak habis buat revision lagi, maa. Huhu, Isnin depan peperiksaan pertengahan semester akan bermula. This would be my last mid-semester exam as an under-graduate student. Pun begitu, aku berdoa agar sakit ini bisa menggugurkan dosa-dosaku dan menjadikan aku lebih dekat kepadaNya. Ameen!

Mengisi borang Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam (SPA) sudah, mengisi Borang Maklumat Diri (BMD) untuk dihantar ke Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia (KKM) pun sudah. Baki lagi, menghadiri temuduga SPA pada 24-26 Februari ini dan menempuhi peperiksaan akhir pada bulan April yang bakal menjelang. Ke tanah manakah bakal tercampaknya aku pada bulan Jun nanti? Ke ‘Tanah serendah sekebun bunga’kah? Atau ke tanah tinggi di bumi nan asing? Nantikan…dan jangan lupa doakan yang terbaik!

P/S: Belum terlewat rasanya utk aku mengucapkan “Alfun mabruuk! Jutaan tahniah buat sahabat-sahabat yang telah terpilih sebagai anggota perwakilan mahasiswa di UIAM Kuantan & UIAM Gombak khasnya, dan seluruh IPT di Malaysia amnya. Semoga kalian dapat menerajui kepimpinan Islam di kampus masing-masing!.” Masa depan yang cerah hanya untuk Islam. Subhaanallah wal hamdulillaahi wallaahu akbar!

Pharmacy Day

In conjunction with Pharmacy Day 2009, organized by the final year students of Kulliyyah of Pharmacy, IIUM Kuantan, here are the three hectic days-in-a-row (of course, these are incomparable to what our Palestinian brothers & sisters have been suffering!)

16/01/09:

We did house-to-house promotion about the program. Flyers were distributed and posters were put up at strategic places. That village, and the villages near-by are known to be the black areas. Most of the villagers are fishermen & unemployed.


“Assalamualaikum, pak cik. Assalamualaikum, mak cik. Assalamualaikum, adik. Kami pelajar farmasi UIA akan buat pemeriksaan kesihatan percuma hari Ahad ni kat Balai Raya Kg. Tanjung Lumpur, sebelah SK Tanjung Lumpur, dari pukul 9 pagi hingga 5 petang. Jemput datang ye! Kalau sekarang ni tengah makan apa-apa ubat, mak cik pak cik boleh la bawak ubat tu sekali nanti. Kita akan bagi khidmat nasihat percuma, insya Allah. Kami juga akan adakan pertandingan mewarna untuk kanak-kanak. Datanglah ye, adik-adik” Smile & greet. Smile & greet. Smile & greet.

17/01/09:

Gotong-royong di balai raya. We swept and cleaned the floor, wiped the wall, unclogged the drain, and arranged the tables and chairs accordingly. Just like a room make-over! It was nicer to look at than before. Then, we had the lunch together.


2.30 pm – 5.30 pm: we had to attend the lecture on Ethics and Laws in Pharmacy; it’s a core-course!

“Aik, pharmacy pun ade lecture jgk ke hujung minggu? Tak pernah-pernah pun dengar sebelum ni”, kata seorang sahabat dari KAHS. Uhhu..memang pun ada tapi tersangatlah jarang dan hampir tiada.

18/01/09:

It’s the big day! I was the person in-charge for blood pressure screening. Most of the people came with white-coat hypertension and many have been diagnosed with hypertension before this; treated or untreated, compliant or non-compliant. Unsurprisingly, those who have already developed hypertension were found to have a strong relation with smoking.


Then I took over the counseling session. One of the patients was an elderly who is on hypertension and diabetes medications. He claimed that he experienced lethargy and sometimes shivering when he took all three types of medicines prescribed by a doctor to him. Because of this, he has been reducing the intake from three types of medicines to consume only one type; which made him felt better. He had reported this to the doctor but ended up of being scolded for the non-compliance and changing the regime without consent.

Upon further probing, I finally found out the real culprit behind his problem. He has not been taking proper meals; he takes his breakfast on time, has his lunch by 3 or 4 pm, he skips his dinner, and eats no snacks before going to bed. With the effect of the anti-diabetic agents that he has been taking and the short of glucose supply from diet, he developed nocturnal hypoglycemia; waking up suddenly from sleep with the whole body shivering. The hypoglycemic condition also occurred at other times.

This case was noted! It will be our case for domiciliary service. At least three visits need to be done to follow up this patient, insya Allah.

P/S: Well done, friends! You've done the great job!

Don't Buy!

Dear all Muslims,

Please visit this website to know more about the products that you have to boycott starting from now on. Let's do this and spread this information to others! The Zionists have been performing the unforgiven genocide in Palestine, now using the phosphorus as their weapons..and we cannot bear watching this happening just like that.

http://www.inminds.com/boycott-brands.html

You can donate your money to Palestinians through:
Al-Quds Institute Malaysian Chapter (Maybank: 564070703248)

"The likeness of those who spend their wealth in the Way of Allah, is as the likeness of a grain (of corn) ; it grows seven ears, and each ear has a hundred grains. Allah gives manifold increase to whom He wills. And Allah is All-Sufficient for His creatures' needs, All-Knower"
[Al-Baqarah: 261]

Our Resolutions

In the successfully conducted mega assembly protesting against Israel's terrorism, all IIUM Kuantan students and staffs have agreed upon 4 resolutions, which are:

1- Boycotting Israel's and any Israel-related products or services

2- Sending humanitarian aids and assistance to Palestine

3- Donating money to Palestinians as much as we can

4- Reciting Qunut Nazilah & performing solat hajat continuously

Among the photos that I've snapped during the event:

Among the IIUM Kuantan protestors
(background: the under-construction-Kulliyyah of Pharmacy building)

A spirit-burning introductory speech from the dean of Kulliyyah of Medicine, Dr. Fauzi.

Bush was sentenced to death! No hands & no legs left!

"Down, down Israel!"...either win or syahid!

Finally!

Finally, a mega assembly is on its way to IIUM Kuantan.

Let's join it!

Let's show our concern!

Let's strengthen our Islamic brotherhood!

p/s: Venezuela dah usir duta Israel. Bravo!
Malaysia a.k.a pengerusi OIC, ape citer? Bila nak usir duta US?

A Time to Kill

Have you ever heard about this phrase? That was what I have been experiencing these couple of days. I learnt about the meaning of this phrase when I first read John Grisham’s masterpiece entitled ‘A Time to Kill’ during my teenage years. It is a great legal thrill novel! By the way, I’m not here to narrate the whole story because you can either read them by yourself or simply watch the movie to feel the rush of your adrenaline. Grisham, you should thank me a lot for promoting your works. Wink!

The real story is this is my worst weekend! I have had so much time that I finally did nothing! Now I am absolutely agree with a quote, “Only those who are busy have time”. In other meaning, only those who are in time-constraint really appreciate the existence of time in their life. My current life is not what it used to be in the past. No meeting to attend, still no assignment or report to work on at this very moment. Actually, what have I done?

I washed my clothes and waited for them to dry completely in this humid weather before I can fold them properly. I should have used the dryer in the first place!

I tried to read a chapter regarding Pharmacotherapy for Endocrine Disorders but only lasted for not more than 1 hour. Oh my God, I just can’t absorb those facts and figures! Was it because I used to work best under pressure? Another habit that I should avoid! I snatched "The 8th Habit" from the book-shelf, read paragraphs after paragraphs until suddenly I did not know which page I was reading.. I felt asleep!

Seeing my 2009 planner placed untouched on the desk, I started to organize my future days; my academic schedule for the first-half of this semester and my ‘iadah timetable. I typed them using Microsoft Word application, printed them out on a colored-paper and pasted them on the wall with the greatest hope that I can realize them.

“IF YOU WANT SOMETHING YOU’VE NEVER HAD, DO SOMETHING YOU’VE NEVER DONE”

Then, I switched on my laptop, plugged in my Celcom broadband modem and began browsing from one site to another. I read and watched the news regarding those Israel terrorists bombarding the Palestinian civilians and prayed may Allah help the HAMAS warriors against the Zionists. The victory is meant for Islam! Allahu akbar!

Later, I came across one advertisement; a call for a big demonstration to protest against Israel that will be held in Putrajaya on the coming January 9. All university and college students are invited! Come, let’s show our unity in our faith!

After reading the news about 2000 IIUM (Gombak) students and staffs united to join a demonstration held in the campus on January 2, suddenly, something stroked my mind. What have we in Kuantan done for this Palestine issue? Are we still in the comfort zone? Not a single rally ever been made by the students here and believe me, the Kuantan residents haven’t recognized our existence since our youthful intelligent voices have not yet beaten their eardrums.

So, don’t blame them if they are surprised to know that there is an IIUM campus in their own hometown. Please, don’t get me wrong. I didn’t say that demonstration is the only way for our voice to be heard. What I meant is, do get out of our own cocoon. Let the people know that we are here to serve them because we are the future leaders!

Facing the laptop screen for hours made my shoulder ached even more. That was the reason why I easily dozed off during this weekend, plus having a nice blanket wrapping my body and the rain outside sounded like a stunning lullaby. Yet, another time to kill! Astaghfirullahal ‘azim!

Selamat Tahun Baru 1430H!

Tahun 1430 H membuka tirainya dengan pelbagai peristiwa besar yang menuntut tahap keikhlasan dan semangat juang yang tinggi daripada muslimin muslimat sedunia demi menjulang syariat Allah di muka bumi ini.

1- Saudara-saudara seaqidah kita di Gaza, Palestin diserang lagi! (sila click aljazeera dan IHT di link yang disediakan di sebelah kanan blog untuk mengikuti berita lanjut di aljazeera & International Herald Tribune). Mari kita sama-sama berdoa, bermunajat dan menunaikan solat hajat memohon pertolongan daripada Allah supaya DIA memenangkan angkatan Islam ke atas kuffar laknatullah.

2- Hukum hudud yang disyariatkan oleh Allah diperlekehkan oleh orang-orang Islam sendiri! Ketentuan Allah dipermain-mainkan. Permainan jenis apakah ini? Adakah kita rela hukum hudud dijadikan polemic politik pihak kerajaan demi mendapatkan kemenangan dalam pilihanraya Parlimen Kuala Terengganu? Ayuh, kita bekerja ke arah mendaulatkan syariat Allah! Bekerja ikhlas keranaNYA.

Selamat berhijrah! Hijrahlah dengan ikhlas semata-mata kerana Allah, nescaya kau tidak akan rugi buat selama-lamanya.

Just can't help myself

“Please, don’t write anything! Just listen to and concentrate on what I am saying. I’ve spent a lot of my time to prepare the notes and I’ll give them to you later, trust me”, said a renowned professor in our 4-5 pm-class yesterday.

My grip on the blue Pilot pen loosened suddenly and my eyes averted spontaneously towards him with a puzzled mind. I felt somewhat irritated and even more distracted from the previous focus on the lecture. What’s wrong with scribbling down? Did he think that I can write every single word that came out from his mouth? Arrggh! Never mind, I’ll keep on jotting down the main points of his lecture.

“Why you are still writing? You don’t trust me? I have 25 years of teaching experiences whereas you are only 25 years old. I know when you are writing, you can’t pay attention to what I’m saying and the message will not be communicated”, the professor said firmly when he saw there were still many students who simply ignored his recent order and one of them was me myself.

Sorry, Prof. I really, really trust you but I just can’t help myself. I know that I’m a visual and physical learner. That’s what I realized when I took a personality test in one program and I admit it. Listening is not enough for this kind of learner. The visual learner learns mostly by visualizing the information that he or she receives and relates one information to another information at the same time to get a clearer picture. In order to ensure that the picture does not easily fade away from my mind, I need pen and papers to draft it. The draft will be my reference point in the future especially during my revision period.

What about me as a physical learner? It means that I can’t stay still listening to the lecture for such a long time without doing something, at least not statically sitting on the chair. And writing is that something for me or else I’ll get bored and lose my focus easily. That would make me whiling away from one ‘fairyland’ to another ‘fairyland’ and that would be of no good!

Boleh diharap ke ni?

Alhamdulillah, pada tanggal 21 Disember 2008 yang lalu, Allah kurniakan lagi kesempatan untuk kaki ini melangkah ke bumi Kuantan setelah berminggu-minggu bersenang-lenang di rumah. Sebaik sahaja mata terlihat kelibat gerbang utama UIA, Allah sajalah yang tahu bagaimana bercampur-baurnya perasaan ini. Takut, gembira dan sedih..semuanya menjadi sebati. 4 bulan yang bakal menjelang nantilah yang akan menyaksikan setakat mana daya mujahadahku sebagai seorang undergraduate-student. Uhhuu..memikirkan keputusan peperiksaan yang lepas, hatiku menjadi luluh. Impian untuk menaikkan CGPA hancur berkecai. Namun, hati bertukar riang semula apabila mensyukuri nikmat Allah menghendaki diri ini tidak tergolong daripada kalangan mereka yang terpaksa reseat paper. Alhamdulillah ‘ala kulli haal!

Semester baru, azam baru. Itu yang selalu dipraktikkan. Untuk sem terakhir ini, aku berazam untuk menjadi orang yang boleh diharap sebab aku rasa aku masih kurang dalam hal tersebut. Dalam bahasa orang putih, boleh diharap is reliable or accountable. Kenapa, penting sangat ke jadi orang yang boleh diharap ni? Pentingla.. sebabnya aku sangat tak suka orang yang tak boleh diharap. Best ke kalau telinga sendiri tiba-tiba berdesing sewaktu terdengar orang kata kita ni tak boleh diharap? Tak best kan? Boleh diharap ini bagiku sinonim dengan amanah. Secara fitrahnya, kita memang akan suka kepada orang yang boleh diharap dan sebaliknya.

Kalau jadi student, jadilah student yang amanah. Apabila diberi assignment dan report untuk disiapkan, dia akan menyiapkannya dalam tempoh waktu yang ditetapkan oleh lecturer. Bukan setakat itu je. Disebabkan dia ni jenis yang boleh diharap, dia akan buat sehabis baik yang dia mampu tanpa perlu dipaksa atau dimonitor, bukan sekadar copy and paste sana sini atau presentationnya dibuat gitu-gitu je. Sikap boleh harap ini juga menyebabkan dia tidak mengabaikan tanggungjawab sosialnya.

Katakan, jika dia ditaklifkan untuk apa-apa jawatan, MPP ke, exco ke, class rep ke, ketua kumpulan ke, hatta tidak ada jawatan rasmi sekalipun, dia akan menyumbangkan kudratnya di mana sahaja diperlukan, dalam apa jua keadaan. Kalau dia sebagai ahli kumpulan, dia akan menjadi ahli kumpulan yang boleh memberi sumbangsaran, bukan sekadar beraksi sebagai pak angguk, mak turut atau yang paling menggerunkan, dia merupakan orang yang semua orang menyampah kat dia.

(Contoh: Dahla time discussion tak datang, pastu bila orang bagi tugas tak buat betul-betul. Orang lain punya part pulak yang dia komen lebih-lebih. Kalau markah dia sendiri sahaja yang affected takpe, ni markah semua orang pun jadi rendah disebabkan perangai dia seorang. Aduhai, malang sungguh kalau dapat ahli group yang macam ni.. Insaflah weih, tak ada siapa pun yang sukakan tabiat macam tu, tak untung satu sen pun! Hehe, apalah yang aku membebel ni? Bukan membebel, tapi ini ori punya case!)

Student yang boleh diharap ni, letakla kat mana-mana pun, still berjaya mendapatkan kepercayaan orang lain. Hanya orang yang dengki dengannya sahaja yang akan naik geram dan mengutuk-ngutuknya dari belakang. Biarlah..itu mulut dia, dialah yang jaga..jaga daripada disambar api neraka. Nauzubillahi min zalik! Macam bagus kan kalau dapat jadi student yang amanah? Iyalah, sebab dia ni memang boleh diharap!

Alangkah seronoknya jika kita mampu menjadi hamba Allah yang boleh diharap.

Setiap detik diri diabdikan kepada agama dengan rela

Lebih manis apabila setiap hela nafas berbaur redha

Ketika takut dengan ancamanNya, dia merindui janji manis Pencipta

Dipersiapkan diri untuk dijemputNya

Kerana dia cukup yakini

Hidup di dunia hanya sekali

Sedangkan mati itu pasti terjadi

Akhirat itu pasti ditempuhi

Hisab itu pasti dilalui

Syurga atau neraka itulah destinasinya nanti

Another New Phase of Life

15th December 1983:

With a help from a midwife, a 3.2kg baby girl was safely born in a traditional wooden house located at a countryside of Kota Bharu. The new born was a symbol of love of a couple who practiced love-after-marriage, yet lived happily ever after.

That lucky girl was brought-up with their own hands filled with love. Being the first child , she was by a little bit pampered as she got almost everything that she wanted. The things that she had were all new and she didn’t have to share them with others.

About two months before celebrating her 2nd birthday, she was gifted with a cute little friend. At first, she was happy as she now had someone to play with. However, day after day, she got envier with this new friend who in fact, her own sister. She was asked to share her stuffs with her younger sister. When they were quarreling, she was told to rise up the white flag first even though she was not the one who started everything and she really hated doing that.

She didn’t know that she was taught to have a good sense of responsibility at that moment. She didn’t realize that she was going to have more and more sisters and brothers in the next approaching years. She even didn’t have any idea on how to become a good leader in the future, just because she was still a toddler who didn’t understand how complicated the world actually is.

15th December 2008:

That girl in the story, named Nur Asiyah Mustapha Kamil, is now celebrating her 25th birthday, her 25th years of life, her silver jubilee. By the will of Allah, she is facing a new phase in her life with new persons around crafting new atmospheres. She feels very grateful and thankful to those who have helped and are helping her in becoming who she is. Please pray that every pace she takes and every move she makes are blessed by God. Thank you.

Sacrifice

It has been a while since I last posted an entry here. I can’t believe that, don’t know where to start. So many things deep inside my heart.. but what to do? The recent Eidul Adha was very exciting as all my uncles, aunties and cousins gathered at nanny’s house during this festive season. Three families from my dad’s side united with the total members of 27; 11 from my family, 11 from my uncle’s, 4 from my aunt’s and not forgetting our lovely nanny. So sad that dad was not here.. may his soul rest in peace. Ameen!

The first thing done in the morning of Eid was performing the Eid pray and listening to Eid sermon right after that. From the mosque, we headed to nanny’s house to perform another ‘ibadah (worship); to sacrifice a cow. The slaughtering was done by the gentlemen in the families, nearby nanny’s courtyard.

Back in the old kitchen of nanny’s, the ladies were preparing the ingredients to be cooked with the in-coming fresh meats. Everybody worked hand-in-hand. Little kids were jumping cheerfully and moving here and there, creating a mixed indescribable noise of multi-pitches.. or should I call it a music rather than a noise? It could be a music if it brought pleasure but I’d rather not to call it as such if it only cracked my ear-drums. Well, no need to waste your saliva just to scold them angrily because I’ve made the same things when I was a child, long time ago and I would feel very sad when I got scolded, that’s a kid’s nature.. and probably the grown-ups too.

Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah, for giving me another chance to live in this blissful mesmerizing mood with my beloved family members around. Will I have a chance to live in the same milieu in the future? I do hope so. I got one SMS that day from a friend of mine, Nurul ‘Izzah Zahari. The words were really meaningful that I want to share it here.

“SACRIFICE IS BEST WHEN THE CAUSE IS KNOWN AND THE EFFECT IS CERTAIN. THUS, MAKE SURE OF YOURS.. SO THAT YOU WON’T REGRET IT LATER”.

When a sacrifice is done to fulfill the order of Allah the Almighty, to give charity for the needy, to uphold the virtues and to blend the harmony within the society, then the causes are known and absolutely the effects are certain. Certainly there will be great rewards awaiting. In what form the rewards will be granted by God? They are all up to Him. May be a blessed society with a low crime rate, a serene heart with no more hatreds, a wealth and a health. We never know but we can predict. If all of us do the right things in the right ways, we know that by the will of Allah only the good things will be blooming.. a natural law that can’t be denied. We are confident that our good deeds done for the sake of Allah will help to peter out our small sins and Allah will prepare for us His magnificent paradise in the hereafter. Insya Allah.

Unluckily, the reality today is so disastrous.. too far from the sweet dream and seems so unreachable.
People sacrifice their own invaluable dignity only to get some money.
People sacrifice their priceless time doing the nonsense things only to feel the momentary pleasure.
What else? Let’s list them down..